Sometimes i want to go back to the time when I was younger, when I was a kid. But then i remember how i wanted to hurry things and get older faster when i was younger. *deep sigh-ing*
Thinking about these makes me think that maybe i don’t really know where i want to be or maybe I’m not grateful enough, or maybe these two reasons are connected to each other. err.. i don’t know.
Maybe i should learn how to seize the moment.
It’s hard to live and to observe life itself at the same time. I should learn how to switch the buttons in turns, with the right “beat”.
Well, i have found myself doing it couples of times.
When i do it, i look at my past as photo albums instead of a space that i could reclaim. I don’t compare my past and my present because they each have their own moments and meanings.
Although i would never know the measure of my gratefulness, i just feel warm inside and out knowing that i am enjoying my present.
I just live my present and reminisce my past.
Well, I’d say, i don’t know how would i be able to enjoy my life if i don’t observe closely and count the little blessings. I observe to see the meanings of bad things so i won’t regret it in the future. I observe to find perspective of good things so i can motivate myself to do more.
I don’t know what story would i tell about my life if i keep saying “I wish i had/had been….” to myself.
I don’t know which part of my life should i live in other than the present part.