I am dark and can be very evil minded
Some people just laugh and say I am nothing like that
That I am not dark nor evil
What could those fools possibly understand?
I do have an inner dark power burning inside of me
My blood lust is out of control
Sometimes I just want to scream and kill
I am scared of myself
The thoughts I have can be so dark, so cruel
That I cannot believe I love them
Yet what can I do to stop these feelings?
Nothing, that’s just it
I don’t know how to turn it off
I am that I am
And nothing seems to be able to change it
But I do not care
I love what I am and no one can take that from me
I may scare myself with thoughts of what I’d like to do to people,
I may scare others with my sudden outbursts of anger and hatred
But I cannot stop myself
Am I losing my mind? I don’t know
No one can ever tell if they are because they think it’s normal
Only when other people think you have
And you feel something could it be true
No one can just say you are insane
Sometimes I suffer from it, sometimes I enjoy my deep insanity
All I can do is pray that I will not actually hurt anyone I care about
But all the same, in one way or another, I have
So what can be done about this growing dark desire?
Nothing. I have already tried to fight it,
Now I embrace the power and it feels so good.
But will I lose my very heart and soul in the process?
I simply do not know
All I do know,
Is that it won’t stop
But then, do I really want it to?